I told myself I wouldn't cry. I didn't want to scare her. I didn't want her to think this stranger was emotionally unstable. Then I worried if I didn't let myself cry she'd think maybe I was emotionally inept. I changed my shirt 3 times. I was about to change it a fourth time when … Continue reading The Promise
5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. It's been 5,364 days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 more days. 5,983 days since you were born. Just. 5. More. … Continue reading Five More Days
It's been some time since I've updated here at Musings of a Birthmom. This will be a short, sweet, personal update to explain my absence - for anyone who should care. My husband had back surgery about 3 weeks ago and his recovery was more than anticipated. He's required a heavy level of care-giving that … Continue reading Short & Sweet
I obsess. That's what I do. Fear is something that is always a part of my life and I have struggled long and hard, for so many years, decades really, to not let it control me. Alas, it sometimes wins in the end. I have waited so many days, months, years, to see her again. … Continue reading In My Dreams
As my relinquished daughter gets older it's become more difficult to keep up with personal updates in regards to my adoption story. The older she gets, the more I realize that it isn't just my story to tell and I have become conflicted about just what to share and what to keep private. I see … Continue reading The Adoption Rollercoaster: Reunion?