A little over a year ago, the daughter I had not seen since just a few months before her second birthday was in my arms again. You can catch up on that BY CLICKING HERE ON THIS HYPERLINK.
I never would have imagined we’d be where we are now. Without going into too many details, I’ll just say that the same rights a parent has to their minor child have been returned to myself and my husband via a permanent order of custody.
I spent last week reading IKL the story of my pregnancy, her birth, & relinquishment by way of the book I wrote covering it, Whispers of Grace. How surreal to read the book I wrote about her, written just before we had contact with her, while she was sitting next to me, living with me, her bedroom just across the hall. I made it through almost the whole thing without shedding a tear. But there is no way to read aloud about what it’s like to permanently and irrevocably surrender your rights to your newborn TO that once newborn who is now beside you without shedding some tears. Her arms flew around me fast and she said, “It’s okay. I’m here now.”
How did I get this lucky? Why does my luck have to come at the expense of her leaving her friends, her culture, her home? How does she handle all of this with such grace?
I don’t know. I just know that I love her. It doesn’t feel like she’s been gone all these years. At the same time it’s so obvious she has and that hole where those years are can never be given back. We can only move forward. One day at a time.
3 thoughts on “Not So Permanent & Irrevocable After All”
I am overjoyed to hear your news! You have grown so strong. Blessings to your family.
Oh this is so freaking wonderful! I dream of this being possible for all adopted people that whenever their family can begin taking care of them they deserve it and adoption should not stand in the way of a person living with their own family to finish out the term of some contractual promise. I reunite separated families for free and help adopted people take back their identity and birth certificates. Whatever you do don’t adopt your own kid you should not have to. I know of people that did that and its ridiculous. Congratulations! I read your blog with great interest.