Sometimes I want to come outside of this broken down little home I've made on the far side of Adoptionland, this house I've barricaded myself into so no one can get in, and more importantly, so my uncontrolled rage can't get out and do anymore harm.
How far do some people go for attention? For notoriety? Howfar will they go to trick people for years? How many lies will they tell andwhen will it catch up with them? Eventually it always does. Unfortunately, inAdoptionland, there is a wolf among many of you. A wolf that you’ve blindlyfollowed because that wolf has … Continue reading Emily Carol Upton: Catfish of the Year in Adoptionland or Forgetful Victim?
..pink bundle, perfect, beautiful, needing me, wanting me, all you need.. ..self-hating, worthless, lies I tell myself, that I believe, can’t see, truth.. ..society doesn’t want me to be, judgment and words that cut me, help me cut you.. ..out of my life.. ..forever severed.. ..stranger in the crowd, faceless child of … Continue reading Sincerely Yours No More
How can one be a mother yet not a mother at the same time? How can one be a daughter yet an orphan all at once at never at all? How can we walk that line of in-between and straddle both worlds of decadent joy and pure loss? . Mother's Day is complicated and almost … Continue reading Our Mother’s Day Mosaic
Sleep found me easily and peacefully. I usually suffer from insomnia and will lay awake for hours praying that slumber will come upon me. A peace I'd never known before washed over me as all of my children were under my roof in the same place at the same time. The people I value and … Continue reading I Can See the Horizon