..pink bundle, perfect, beautiful, needing me, wanting me, all you need.. ..self-hating, worthless, lies I tell myself, that I believe, can’t see, truth.. ..society doesn’t want me to be, judgment and words that cut me, help me cut you.. ..out of my life.. ..forever severed.. ..stranger in the crowd, faceless child of … Continue reading Sincerely Yours No More
Domestic Adoption Support Group founder, Jessica Bortz Schaap, took to Facebook today to address the screen shots I've been taking from groups with unethical admins and members. She put a "live video" call out asking all of her fans and followers to report the Facebook page that accompanies this blog, Musings of a Birthmom. She … Continue reading The Facebook Files: Domestic Adoption Support Group Admin, Jessica Bortz Schaap, Goes Facebook Live!
How can one be a mother yet not a mother at the same time? How can one be a daughter yet an orphan all at once at never at all? How can we walk that line of in-between and straddle both worlds of decadent joy and pure loss? . Mother's Day is complicated and almost … Continue reading Our Mother’s Day Mosaic
Sleep found me easily and peacefully. I usually suffer from insomnia and will lay awake for hours praying that slumber will come upon me. A peace I'd never known before washed over me as all of my children were under my roof in the same place at the same time. The people I value and … Continue reading I Can See the Horizon
I told myself I wouldn't cry. I didn't want to scare her. I didn't want her to think this stranger was emotionally unstable. Then I worried if I didn't let myself cry she'd think maybe I was emotionally inept. I changed my shirt 3 times. I was about to change it a fourth time when … Continue reading The Promise